im too lazy to do up my nails ._. although the previous design is chipping like mad ._.

every night i sent you a goodnight message.. i wonder if you read them.. cuz you never reply my msgs, even on fb.. i miss you, yknow.. im feeling so lonely here.. i havent talked to many people.. just zhongwei.. dont want to talk to anyone else when i dont even get to talk to you
everytime i hear your name, see your name, my heart skips a beat.
I've rejected like, 3 people, for you, recently, but its like you dont even realise it..
I read some of the msgs you sent me last december.. the one msg where you finally realise what i feel, where you told me the things i wanted to hear.. why is all that gone..?

well, I really hope something special will happen on our 1.5 year..

i remember the times when we webcam-ed during holidays...

somehow, it feels like you dont care anymore..

today is christmas eve! but still no proper christmas dinner this year ._. i shall wait ._.
anyways, what do i want for christmas...
i just want you :)
i love you, forever and always :) merry christmas :) <3

I LOVE YOU.
period.

i feel like trying to sing 'all i want for christmas is you' <3

just thrashed out with Lester. teared a little, but im okay :)
but really, i still dont know what you want.
I want you. Do you still want me? ._.

Oh ya, if anyone ever reads this blog, which I kind of doubt so since it has been dead for awhile, this is my tumblr link :
www.sweetlollipoplove.tumblr.com

 i know it sounds funny, but its because I created the account for fun at first out of curiousity and didn't expect to be so active there haha.
anyway, my tumblog is a blog full of photos I like, fashion, inspiring quotes, some of my own photos, so if you're interested, go ahead :) follow me if you do check out my tumblr :) I'll follow back :)

If you remember, before we were together, I was the reluctant one. I didn't want to get involved in a relationship because I was scared. Scared of being hurt again. And again. Well, somehow, I decided that this would be the last time I will risk my heart being broken.
And now, I'm still the reluctant one. The one not wanting to let go, the one not wanting to fall out of love with you. And I know it makes me sound horribly desperate.
I know there are many people trying to separate us, but fuck, I really don't care, I love you.

all this complaining is making me sound like a psycho bitch i know, who knows, maybe I am one. haha.

Gosh im thinking too much again..
I realised I havent been socialising much, it's so not me. Staying at home rotting instead of having fun outside with friends.
And yes, Im thinking too much again cuz I miss you. Last year's this month, many things happened. Things I never imagined would happen.Yes, it tore me into shreds. But they say what doesn't kill you just makes you stronger. So I guess that was how I went through the whole year. It was a rough year. I tried to look tough on the outside, but the truth is, on the inside, everyday I'm crying, everyday I'm dying for all these to be over. And now, I realise, it won't be over for a very long time. I do admit i get paranoid very often, and I'm sorry, but it's just me. Actually I think you should be glad that I get paranoid. ._. or not ._. i dont know. Okay I dont know what I'm saying anymore so I'll stop here I guess.
Nobody would believe me but yeah, I love you, more than anything else in this world. :)

stupid me in tears again ><

okay ._.
oh one more thing i wanna complain here.
MY NECK FREAKING HURTS!! :(:(:( it hurts like hell :( and my throat too :( please dont tell me its infection again ._.

bloody hell I wanna see you I wanna go out with you the freaking ban is over already and I still dont get to see you.

lalala ._. im bored ._.
wanna go jamming! D: but everyone's timing is different ._. so gotta wait til after christmas ._. wow i just realised I'll be staying so far from the studio then ._. nvm ._.

let's pray hard nothing bad happens this december again..

*praypraypraypraypray*


i love you

wanted to type a longer post, but forget it.
just know that i miss you. A lot.
i think of you every night before i sleep, like i promised.
hope you do..
i wanna see you so bad..
this year has been so horrible..

made cookies today :D
conclusion:
cakes are easier to make than cookies ._.

i wanna open blogshop
i wanna open blogshop
i wanna open blogshop
i wanna open blogshop
i wanna open blogshop
i wanna open blogshop
i wanna open blogshoppppp!!!
somebody guide me :(

I love you :')

S'MORES! :D

made s'mores for the first time :) just that i used normal crackers instead of grahams >< its so yummy! the marshmallow becomes soooo big in the microwave :D so cute! <3 Im gonna make it another time! :D